Grade 1
One day, the girl who had hair pointing outwards
like horns growing out from behind her neck
looked at me with eyes blank with youth
and said she was proud of me. Sip orange juice.
It was during break time
when she tells the class, huddling around us, that I
was no longer a gay boy. That sure, I was one yesterday,
but today she sees none of that softness
weighing down my shoulders, tingling her curiosity.
Nothing bent or fragrant standing out.
Today, she declared me void and for that,
I’m worth a round of applause. Crumple juice box.
Later in class, we stand to recite to the letter P.
I stand, get nipped at the ankle by classmates
not to say P as in Pamaypay, as in Pink, as in Prim,
but to say P as in Pako, as in Pain, as in Power.
Replica
The attention those gauntlets would catch
out in the streets. Shine full silver,
their outlines solar, framing
power muscular yet refined.
Imagine unboxing the delivery
through a flurry of excitement,
donning the headband – sorry, tiara,
and seeing it as reconciliation
between the young man
who wants to grow into full man
by looking past tremors of his own hate,
studying the dullness in violence,
understanding that mercy is a constant task
and that the truth isn’t always as golden
as a one-word definition,
mixed with the plucky eight-year-old boy
wearing a mask from Toy Kingdom,
a makeshift lasso made out of
shoestrings, ribbons and shorts strings
latched at the garters of his basketball shorts,
who will only spin to transform
to fetch a remote or pour water into pitchers
at the right call for help: Wonder Woman!
Lemon juice
and here we might be having
a love that knows about time
that doesn’t burrow in the chest
coming through smooth
like the first inhale of a cool breeze
upon opening a door
the kind of love that knows
its place and circumstance
within the choice you must make
between the bad event and
the typical happy ending
because sticky situations
do not transmute into good
by themselves
you have to choose to wake up
and contribute to the healing
until you bear a gift to reap
which right now
is the rest of central London
all to ourselves
the city not noticing the swift landing
of an arm around a shoulder
the back and forth of flirtation
nimble on its feet